To Live With Eyes Open

From flesh and blood, there is no escape I can find.

Why would you want to escape? What is this “you” and where would you escape to?

In truth there is much to enjoy about life, even in the midst of suffering. Even as you watch the world you thought you knew bend out of shape and become a new kind of hell. That moment when you break the stare and decide to persist, is wonderful. Sure the suffering may continue but in a way, your consciousness is raised. It may appear as though you have made the decision to stay where you are and continue with the storyline, but you have chosen the hard thing… commitment.

You are going to learn from this situation, and if what you learn provides you with existential buoyancy, you will rise above it. You can feel a different story call you through the noise, through the void, as if you are meant to meet someone else’s spirit on the banks of a river you have never rested on, but now is not the time, or better yet, the route towards that story is not a straight line.

What makes it hard, is that the tone of that voice calling through the noise, is usually love.

Circa November 2024